BBW Raped, beaten, addicted to crack, threatened w/ a Machete, Nearly Killed by Bugs..Other Than That
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From www.dailymail.co.uk- She appeared full of life and confidence during her burlesque routine on Britain's Got Talent last night but curvy dancer Fabia Cerra has endured a lifetime of tragedy, it emerged today.
The size 20 performer, who received a standing ovation from the judges and audience on the ITV1 show yesterday, was raped twice before the age of 15, beaten up by her alcoholic mother and forced to take part in a pornographic film.
To blot out the pain she began using crack cocaine to which she became addicted and later had a nervous breakdown which led to her being diagnosed with manic depression.
She turned her life around but more worry was to come when she caught a flesh-eating bug during the birth of her first child Leone which nearly killed her.
'I have had a tough life, there's no denying it,' she told The People.
'Some people would have given up by now but it's just made me stronger. I want to be a role model for larger women, a role model for drug users and a role model for anyone who has had to face a hard life.'
The 35-year-old housewife from Oxford, a former disco dancing champion, wowed judges Simon Cowell, Amanda Holden and Piers Morgan last night with her gyrations and splits - securing her a place in the second round.
But the fight for a place in the final is nothing compared to the battles Cerra has endured in her life - detailed in her autobiography In 2 Minds.
She suffered her first abuse aged just five when a relative forced himself on her. Four years later, aged just nine, another relative raped her.
'What was even worse was that the same day this happened I did tell my mother and her reaction was to say to me, "Stop telling tales, you horrible little girl",' Fabia told the paper.
Fabia revealed that her alcoholic mother Carol regularly beat her and her sister Lorenza with a wooden stick and that she cheated on the girls' father with numerous men.
At aged 14, Fabia was raped AGAIN by an 18-year-old at a party and was so emotionally scarred by the age of 20 that she was hooked on drugs and alcohol.
In 1992, during a relationship with a junkie, she was forced take part in a porn video after he threatened her with a machete.
With no friends left and her health in danger, it was thanks to the help of Lorenza that Fabia got her life back on track.
By 2001 she was off drugs and met her partner Dougie Thomson, the father of her four-year-old son Leone.
'Thank God I had my sister Lorenza there. Without her I don't know where I would be. I started therapy and all the truths about my upbringing came out.
'As a result of the drugs I was taking for my treatment, my weight started to balloon and I lost all my confidence. It took me 13 years to recover properly. I hate drugs so much now,' she told The People.
But despite her new found joy, there was more pain to come.
During her caesarean section for Leone, Fabia was diagnosed with the flesh-eating bug necrotising fasciitis and went into toxic shock three days after the birth and nearly died.
The infected area across her midriff had to be cut out leaving her with a large scar that will ensure she will never bare her middle during her striptease routines.
Thankfully, she's not shy about the rest of her body and will continue to strip off and perform in the hope of securing a place in the final and the chance to dance in front of the Queen at the next Royal Variety Show.
'I don't want the money or fame. I just want to appear in front of Her Majesty. I hope she's not shocked by me,' Fabia said.
From www.people.co.uk- LARGER-than-life Fabia Cerrera - who stunned millions of Britain's Got Talent viewers with her strip act last night - has revealed a heartbreaking lifetime of personal tragedy.
Hefty dancer Fabia, 35, who twirled her 42F tasseled boobs in front of the ITV talent show's startled judges, has confessed how she was... RAPED TWICE before she was 15.
BEATEN UP by her alcoholic mother.
HOOKED on crack cocaine as she tried to blot out her grim memories.
FORCED to take part in a machete-wielding boyfriend's porn movie.
DIAGNOSED as bipolar after a nervous breakdown.
NEARLY KILLED by a flesh-eating bug after giving birth.
Speaking exclusively to The People before the start of the latest Britain's Got Talent series, size 20 Fabia said:" I have had a tough life, there's no denying it.
" Some people would have given up by now but it's just made me stronger and taught me to see the positive in everything.
" I want to be a role model for larger women, a role model for drug users and a role model for anyone who has had to face hard times." Fabia, an ex-world disco dance champ from Oxford, reveals in her autobiography In 2 Minds how her first brush with sex abuse came at the age of just five when a relative forced his tongue down her throat. She says the man sneered:" Come and give me a sexy kiss" then forced himself upon her.
Four years later when Fabia was nine another relative RAPED her.
She recalled:" He locked us both up in his parents' bedroom.
I had no idea what was happening to me. He told me to lie down on the double bed.
" He lay on top of me until I couldn't breathe properly and I then experienced a terrifying ordeal. I had to do everything he told me to do- otherwise, he said he would hurt me."
The ordeal only came to an end when her younger sister Lorenza called out her name.
Fabia said: " What was even worse was that the same day this happened I did tell my mother and her reaction was to say to me, 'Stop telling tales, you horrible little girl'."
Her mother Carol, who died eight years ago from lung disease, was a bed-hopping alcoholic who regularly beat her two daughters. Fabia said:" Mum had a wooden stick she used to beat us with. It was about a metre long, three inches thick and wide.
" It really stung when she hit us with it. We would either be told to hold out both our hands palms upwards, or she would use it across the back of our legs." She said her mum cheated on her Italian dad Bruno with a string of men - including a soccer ace from then-high-flying Oxford United - on one occasion even catching her in the act.
When Fabia was 14 she was raped at a party by an 18-year-old.
She said:" I was physically attracted to him but I wasn't yet ready to have sex.
" We found ourselves in a bedroom and got into bed together, I was very nervous, in fact I was shaking all over with fear, but in spite of my reservations I still had sex with him.
" I screamed in pain and asked him to stop but instead he put his hand over my mouth until he was satisfied. After it was over, I felt sick and dirty and went straight to the bathroom. I noticed that I was bleeding.
" He didn't even knock on the bathroom door to see if I was all right. It never occurred to me back then that what he had done was actually rape - and also that I was a minor." By the age of 20 she was so emotionally damaged she had to be high on drugs and booze to have sex. She said:" I not only smoked cannabis and cocaine, but took ecstasy and drank too much alcohol. I was always high on drugs before I had sex with people in order that I couldn't feel anything. I hated having any man touch me." She drifted between men and fell into an affair with a junkie who in 1992 forced her to take part in degrading porn video.
She said:" I was scared not to do anything he told me because he had a machete in the flat and I know he would have threatened me with it if I did not cooperate with him.
" He instructed me to wear sexy underwear, to lie on the floor and touch myself while he was recording and talking dirty to me at the same time. I had to act as if I were really enjoying myself.
The truth was that I felt sick to my stomach." The only enjoyable moment she had was a brief fling with a lesbian. She said:" It was something I had never done before and it was very sensual. I was so excited and really turned on." But Fabia had a nervous breakdown and was diagnosed as bipolar - the afflicts TV star Kerry Katona.
She said:" My weight had plummeted to eight stones from all the drugs and I was blocking everything out and I ended up having a breakdown.
All my friends turned their backs on me.
" Thank God I had my sister Lorenza there. Without her I don't know where I would be.
" I started therapy and all the truths about my upbringing came out. As a result of the drugs I was taking for my treatment, my weight started to balloon and I lost all my confidence. It took me 13 years to recover properly.
I hate drugs so much now." Her life changed for the better in 2001 when she met Dougie Thomson, the father of four-year-old son Leone.
Speaking to The People last week, Fabia said:" Having Leone was amazing and I love him dearly, but I nearly died.
I had to have a caesarean section and was diagnosed with flesh-eating bug necrotising fasciitis. Just three days after having Leone I went into toxic shock and nearly died.
" The surgeons had to cut out the infected area. That's why I will never strip off and bare my midriff as I have a 12-inch scar running from hip bone to hip bone. I'm lucky to be alive." Now Fabia wants to win Britain's Got Talent so she can strip in front of the Queen at the next Royal Variety Show.
She said:" I don't want the money or fame, I just want to appear in front of Her Majesty.