Devon posts on MySpace: Hey whats up everyone!!! First off im fuckin crazy and don’t give a fuck, haha. I really wanna speak my mind more than ever lately after learning some of this real life jugglin. The past forevers i always worked for a few big companies like vivid, jill kelly, and digital playground but now im straight up doin my own thing:) This industry is so wack you wouldn’t believe it. lol.

Lately ive been laying low hanging out with friends and doing alot of fun stuff tryin to stay away from the whole porn mess. I’ll be back though for sure Just in a different way:) Sometimes you get so caught up that you can no longer see the big picture from the outside which is important to me and should be for everyone. Looking in, i feel bad for everyone in the industry and how bad everyone rips each other off. I barely don’t even know any girls that aren’t also escorts to pay the bills. You all know how much respect you have for call girls. haha.

Being a star in movies doesn’t cut it, neither does doing a photoshoot once or twice a month. That would all change if maybe one company would give the so called stars residuals off thier movies. After all these movies sell for years but they’ll payout the stars around 50 g’s total one time(girls and guys so a few grand per scene) for a movie that could produce millions over time. haha, who’s your daddy!!

The man behind the desk doesn’t care at all because he knows his market tools don’t know any better and of course thier gonna come shoot again to pay those bills. I’ve even heard them joke around about going on vacation for a few years and coming back and thier girls will still be stuck in the same spot doing the same thing. Girls sometimes tend to think thier the center of attention when really this whole game is about that disc and box in the stores marketed the right way. Bad publicity is good publicity as long as your name gets thrown up. You can’t say that about most other jobs:) It’s this big stupid circle.

Any extra money made for most goes into poppin pills like vics, zanis, doin blow, having a badass car for your apartment lol. Just keep spending too somehow keep your head alittle sane to deal with what you’ve become. You could spend all your money and have the best material items only to realize your not happy so go buy something else. lol. The more you make, the more you have to spend. I’m not counting myself out because yes, I’ve been there done that and still struggle with my own problems just like everyone else.

We’ll every porn girl too me is really a beautiful girl inside and out trying hard to fit in with a bad past. To think back i can’t really remember too many kids throughout school dreaming of being a pornstar. Just about every pstar I’ve met wishes they could do mainstream movies but it’s alittle hard once you get labled as a pornstar. Maybe some late night hbo shiz but they just want you to show off your body there too.

I guess picture it this way. You show up to set, theres like 20 wierdos there waiting to see you naked that can’t wait too watch, and you just have to block out your head and pretend your not really in your body. I’ve never gotten close to getting off on camera nor have i ever had much fun filming a movie. But don’t get me wrong because i know there are some people out there that would like to have sex in front of a bunch of strangers with some toolbag they don’t know. Filming with girls(g/g) isn’t as bad because you feel alot more comfortable but i don’t know any girls who look forward to filming with a guy. lol.

Sex is just more fun and a lot better when a camera isn’t documenting you if you can see it that way. Doing anything and everything you want, anywhere and be the real you:) Publicists may tell you to say different though:) That’s just alil of the truth. lol. Ive been very fortunate to become surrounded with alot of good people lately and they’ve been helping me see alot of the real things in life. I used to be so caught up in wanting to have some designer glasses, purses, clothes but ive realized that nobody cares. haha seriously.

Something else i realized lookin into this shit is that i was always trying to impress the wrong people. I moved out here to cali but got surrounded by porn people. I realized that i was trying to dress and look good for only people in the industry and seriously almost every single person in my phone book was friends with people in porn. Thats when i started to realized how stupid i was about not getting out there and experiencing life.

Being a pornstar is like being in a stupid race with no finish line and i wish some peps could see that. When you work in the industry you keep trying to impress anybody who you feel might be above you like a boss or another pstar(market tool) but then you finally figure out they are nobody to impress because look at who they are. It doesn’t feel all too great when you only trying to impress scum ya know. Alittle back to image; The price for some of these purses, clothes these days, id rather go on a cruise for the same price, The only things i used to look forward to in life was going out to the next club, making the next dollar, getting high next, going on a vacation to get away from porn, but lately thats all changed. Theres just too much fun stuff out there.

Maybe im alittle different than your average girl but i like going snowboarding, going wakeboarding, hanging with the boys at the skatepark, smokin weed haha, i don’t drink barely so when i do i get hammered! I love the beach and im making this summer towards becoming a better surfer. Anyway i don’t know what else to write right now but overall i feel i don’t need to prove shit to anyone neither do any of you. Who cares what anyone thinks of who you are because this is your world and nobody elses. I like how the beatboy Eyedea puts it, “this is my world, you just happen to live in it too.” If you don’t know who Eyedea is and you think eminem is cool then you need to update………XOXO Devon